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A Sweet Echo
Excerpts from Novitiate Notebook
Sr. Tessie Agpasa, FSP
Daughters of St. Paul
It was in the year 1961 when I first heard the sound of the bell ringing in my ears and the sweet echo of the voice saying "Come follow me" I didn't pay attention.? I was telling to myself; it is just an infatuation.? Then I happened to meet two Sisters (Nuns) visiting our house with their medals and books to offer.? I was then six years old at that time.? I was attracted to them.? From that time on I began to be interested in entering the convent.? I wanted to become a Sister (Nun).? So, I started to have a devotion to St. Therese of the Child Jesus, to whom my mother was so devoted.? After sometime, again I heard that same sound and invitation - "Come follow me."...? And this time it became clearer.? But I said; no, this is just infatuation, false attraction but at the same time I was confused and disturbed.? I was caught between goodbye and my love for my family and friends, my career and other things.
Days, months and years passed, I was already in High School.? The vision of my call kept disturbing me.? So, I said; I think I have now to search and find if this vision is really true.? But in the course of my searching I was hindered by financial problems.? So, instead I decided to enjoy life.? I worked and studied at the same time.? Yet, the sound of the bell kept ringing in my ears and the sweet echo of a voice saying; "Come follow we" was more persistent.? The more I evaded the call the stronger it became. ?But again I said no, why should I enter the convent? ?For me life outside the convent is worth living and I did appreciate to the point of enjoying myself. ?Then I started to make life beautiful, meaningful and colorful by prayers, work, study changed with all sorts of enjoyments such as; going out with friends, parties, and movies.? Yet, in the midst of my busy and noisy life the sound of the bell kept ringing in my ears and the sweet echo of the voice saying; "Come follow me" seemed irresistible this time. ?So, I asked myself... ?Is this an Infatuation or a real call that needs my response?...
And finally I said, "Yes".? I'll come and follow you Lord.? Then I left everything and made my decision to enter the convent.? My family was not all in favor especially my Auntie whom I lived with for almost ten years.? But God, the God who calls me out of love, found means and ways to let me answer his call.? It was November 1976 that the vision of my call came into reality.
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